My face looks better. (Yay!) [View all]

The steroids and antibiotics are working.

How fortunate for the " chemo rash" to start clearing up just in time for the radiation burns to really begin to show.

Woohoo! Not horrible yet but I did have one rather nasty looking burn. It looks better today. I was told more would follow.

Doc says I'm "right on schedule" with the side effects. Being typical can be comforting.

I have 3 more weeks of Chemo (3 doses) and 3 more weeks of radiation (15 treatments).

I'm at the half way mark.

I've lost too much weight and I am heading toward the danger zone of weight loss. (for my height/normal weight zone)

I am trying to eat. I do force myself to eat. It seems my entire day is spent eating (or trying to eat or thinking about eating).

5-6 small meals a day coupled with things like Boost and Ensure.

It's not that food taste like paper to me or anything. I could deal with that.

It's the horrible salty taste of food that is doing me in.

It's like eating a spoonful of salt in every bite.

I choke down what I can but then when I get too sick to eat more I stop. Usually after 4-5 bites. (2 hours later I drink a supplement...and 2 hours after that I try food again...and I'm still losing...though I have managed to lose less this week than last week)

I got a new drug with chemo that put a stop to all my nausea. (YES!!!)

I'm eating a lot of high calorie food - which is a change for me. Added whole milk, full fat products to my diet. More meat. Lots of ice cream and frozen yoghurt.


The dry mouth has gotten worse. I keep water with me constantly and I have several rinses for the problem. As well as toothpaste for it. Still...sucks.

I'm tired. Not just from the effects of the treatment.....but tired of going to the hospital 5 days a week. Tired of it all. The food hassles, the 100 mile drive 5 days a week, trying to be upbeat when I just want it all to stop. Tired of the incredibly nice hospital employees asking me how I feel today. Because I feel like warmed over shit. I. am. just. plain. tired.

Thank you for listening.


Hope you're all doing well.