Mental Health Support

I don't know your financial situation, but I'm guessing that you aren't rich or you would already be getting help. It's hard for regular people to get the mental health aid that they need. I've been there and I know.

You might want to try calling a help line first to discuss your issues. Look up mental health services on your computer, and if there's A suicide line, call them, even if you aren't quite suicidal. Sounds like you're at a very low point and you could be suicidal some time soon. Those help lines have people who can direct you to mental health services where you live. You're going to need to do that because you need the help and you're not going to get better until you get it.

I know what it's like. You just want to curl up into a ball and shut out the world. But you've got to reach out to someone to get the help you need. Make that call and get the ball rolling toward dealing with your illness, because that's what it is. If you had a heart attack, would you be afraid to call an ambulance? These problems you're having are just as important.