I can't help but feel guilty anymore about just enjoying life [View all]

Hear me out when I say this. Like with the way the courts are slowly throwing the country into some dystopian hell. I want to be happy and enjoy life while I can with my family, friends and my lovely girlfriend. We have a huge mountain vacation coming up and part of me feels so overwhelming with guilt that I shouldn't be happy and enjoy things. That I need to be worried and scared of what's to come.

I feel if I worry I'm just going to deny myself happiness and be miserable. But if I act like nothing's happening then I'm also living in personal denial of what's happening in our country.

Everyone knows I'm transgender. My rights and life are constantly at risk each day I leave the house. That the GQP are heavily involved ruining my personal life. So why should I try to remain optimistic? I try to be but I feel guilty if I feel like I'm not taking what is happening seriously. I go on vacation. I blow off the seriousness of the country.

I really don't know what to think or feel because of these issues.