I do not handle pain well. [View all]

That means any pain, but especially physical pain. Now, thanks to a stupid bike accident, I am having issues with doing anything in life as well as sleeping because the only time this shoulder really goes off is when I lay down. I am having to sleep propped up, which I am not accustomed to. I was finally able to get an MRI after a failed attempt last Thursday due to the issue I mentioned. (Getting that MRI requires laying down with the shoulder in a prop. It was agony the first time, but the doc gave me some strong stuff and I practically was a zombie in the doughnut this time.) I will find out just what has happened on Tuesday. It might be a torn rotator cuff, which would require surgery and would pretty much immobilize me for just under a year. I doubt I can do this without more strong meds and I hate those things, but I hate pain even more. Not to mention the fact that they may try to suspend my use of medical cannabis, which is why I am not freaking out as I type this. (Well, keeping it to a low grade freakout is what it is doing, but this is really fucking with me and I don't know what to do.) We are not in a good position for this, should my insurance or my auto insurance (in this state, I am covered as a driver of my bike as well as my car). I already expect the premiums to go up and that may be bad as well. Thanks Federal Government, specifically SSDI, for letting me end up like I have. That is what I get for believing all that propaganda I got in school. I still kick myself for falling for it.