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and I'll work on that assumption.

Knowing and having shared a life with you she will be aware of your passive/aggressive problem.

My suggestion, don't lie about what you said; that will make you feel worse about things in different ways as well as increasing the stress you feel. Instead you have to admit what you said and apologise - even if she did not hear what you said. Explain, don't ask for sympathy or forgiveness, use it as a way of bringing the parts of yourself that you do not like into the light where you can control them. If you have been a bit of a s.h1.t in the past tell her that you know it and that you are hoping to get it right.

The dark parts of us hate being in the light so - that's where they need to be.

However you decide to deal with this you know that my thoughts are with you.