I cannot stop wondering why I am still around. [View all]

There is just no logical reason for it. It makes no sense whatsoever. I sit here alone every evening because my husband is at work doing something he does not like but we are not in a position to change anything and probably won't ever be. Now that the sociopolitical landscape is turning on people like myself and my husband, things will be even more unlikely to happen. Even being in a blue state is not going to help us.