What to do when it all feels like the stressers are building up [View all]

I have a friend dying of cancer, my bipolar cousin is off her meds and had an episode, the town is doing construction work around our property and my sister has mentioned concerns about maybe there doing things to decrease the value, and maybe "eminent domain" for green space although they haven't said anything. We are talking about building a smalller house for me, because the old family farm house, where I have lived all my life just is too much to maintain and way too big for me.

My sister says we need to be able to sell the farm land at a decent price for security of my future because I haven't been able to work since 2000. I get SSD but not very much, just short of 800 month. They diagnosed me with Chronic Depression, Generalized Anxiety Disorder with OCD tendencies, and Avoidant Personality Disorder. I am only able to make it because my sister helps me out and now she is getting frustrated with me. What are we going to do if we can't get what we need from the land?

All the talk about Chained CPI and cutting Medicare scares me. Now they that study in Britan says that there is no such thing as mental illness and what if everyone agrees and the insurance company uses it as an excuse to stop treatment both talk therapy and meds, and the gov uses it as an excuse to end SSD?

My county is already talking about selling their mental health center where I get my talk therapy and pills. What's going to happen? Plus isn't what the British study really saying is that I and others like me are not really sick we are just bringing it all on ourselves? I don't choose to feel this way, I am this way.

My dog is getting older, its only a matter of time before I lose her. Now the only ferral cat that lives in my barn that I can pet and I am really attached to has been missing for two days.

I was coping but now it just seems like it is all caving in around me. I am not suicidal I just feel overwhelmed. I don't know what to do about it.

I've tried to talk to my sister but she is already overwhelmed from her job, and she's been dealing with a lot of my cousin's stuff because the cousin's brothers and their families aren't really stepping up to the task and my sister considers herself the family fixer.

So lately all she says to me, when I mention I'm scared is that "You always have to make it about you." That's making me feel like shit even more.

I just am really struggling right now and am not sure how to pull it back together?