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I like your user name. That in itself tells me a little something. It's hard to get much from your post as we aren't familiar with you. The two things I get are that you are currently in a really bad spot, and that you are looking to be in a better spot. I came to that conclusion from the 2 and then your username. I think choosing that as your name needs to be recognized as very positive. Don't stop searching for peace.
If I might be so bold as to make a recommendation. Introduce yourself a little bit. It can be really difficult but the people posting regularly in this group are the best du has too offer. I myself have only posted a couple of times here. If you feel a little too reserved to have your own post sitting on top of the page, introduce yourself as a reply to this op. The people here will respect that.
So, twelve hours after your post can you tell us how you are doing? Share as little or as much as you want while keeping your identity(name) to yourself. As the poster above said, this site is not equipped for emergency care. I read your other post before it was deleted and see you do get professional care. Just like many of us who receive professional care, we still seek out communities that will better understand us. I hope this can turn into that community for you.
Welcome to du. How are you today?
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