Veterans

I stopped talking about it probably 7 or 8 years ago. I just mostly go on pretending that all is well until she catches me screaming or crying in my sleep or something like that.

The rest of my family doesn't want to hear anything about it. My parents quickly change the subject and my brother, who is also a veteran, wasn't really in the same situation I was so he just doesn't get it and won't let me talk about it either. I don't have any of what I would call "real" friends as I'm distant and don't really want friendships with anyone.

I hardly even talk about anything when I go to the VA. They don't ask me and they only focus on my symptoms. How am I sleeping? How is my relationship with my wife? How is work going?

The only time and place I really actually say anything about the war and my memories is on this forum.

Like probably many veterans, I just keep on keeping on stuck with my head in the past and bumbling dazed and confused through the present.