when faced with my own struggles, or struggles like you describe here regarding your fear about the well pump, or any of the myriad other stories we hear from friends or read about online, are:
IT'S UNNECESSARY
Of course, survival struggles are a matter of perspective. We know that. As you said here, most of the time you are able to feel gratitude for a roof over your head, heat, food.
And we KNOW there are many struggling in this world in a more profound way...no shelter, no food, poor health.
We know that, so long as we have our health, the other struggles are secondary.
We know these things.
Still...the extraordinary stress so many people feel on a daily basis as we try to survive WITHIN THIS SYSTEM (that's key), seems completely unnecessary to me.
Not when there are those with so many resources. They have their own challenges and struggles, no doubt. And I do believe even those of us who, seemingly, have little could even help them with their challenges and struggles.
It's the coming together of the various puzzle pieces...balancing this shit out...that feels of utmost importance now.
How to work toward that and maintain inner peace and balance -- and not get consumed in anger and frustration -- is what I find most difficult.
But it's the push-back from others -- progressives and spiritual types -- about my belief that wealth should be limited (at least until our collective reality isn't one of lack) -- that I find disconcerting and makes me question my views and my feelings about it all, 'cause I'm always open to seeing things another way.