"worrying is like praying for what you don't want" [View all]

I came across that phrase somewhere on facebook a few weeks ago, and it's been stuck in my mind ever since, but perhaps not as firmly stuck as I would like. I can be a big-time Worrier, and yesterday I feel like I manifested one of my larger fears.

I got downtown excited and ready to go to work when I noticed one of my tires was completely flat, and immediately the "death-spiral" of negative thoughts got to work. To make a long story short, a simple flat tire turned into broken brakes caused by a blunder enacted during throes of frustration: frustration that would have been avoided had I better been able to keep the worrying thoughts at bay. I think I inherited this woeful worry from my mother, who every now and then lately will say "oh god I hope your car doesn't break down."
Often I can maintain a positive outlook though that's been difficult lately among the various flavors of turmoil in my life over the last few years: Pluto, then Uranus stimulating my grand cross.

Today I noticed transiting Venus will be trine my Ascendant for a couple days, which inspired me to make this "lemonade:"

"The Wandering Harper brings peace to weary shopkeepers and troubled folk, wonder to small children, et cetera. In return his basic necessities are provided for, but his "horse" has fallen lame and he is unable to get to the people. However, the people can come to him, in a way

http://thewanderingharper.bandcamp.com/

please consider downloading a tune and/or passing this message along."

One of the very positive effects of the trials I've been through lately is I am following my heart and beginning to eke out a living as a musician.