Bereavement

My 4 brothers are gone, for a long time now, so I've had time to come to terms with those losses. In spite of how you feel right now, you and your family, his partner and his friends will get to the other side of your loss. Some of the relationships you have will endure, but they might change. Stay in touch with people. They might not 'want to bother you'. Or you might not 'want to bother them'. Stay in touch anyway.

I spent a lot of time trying to find a reason, some way I could accept losses. One thing that helped me get here is finally understanding that some things are unacceptable. Everyone grieves differently and you should be nice to yourself as you get used to the empty place.

I don't think you will stop being helpful to others. Maybe not as you were to your brother, but you'll see needs and offer what you can. There is a Jewish myth that there are 13 good men on Earth at any time. You can be one of those good men whenever you want. Take care