Bereavement

Thank you for taking the time to tell me what it's been like for you. I wasn't anywhere near being ready for another romance eight months out. I found I needed to go through the first full year without him, experiencing alone all the seasonal changes and holidays and anniversaries and birthdays, allowing myself to fully feel the awful grief that consumed me. I needed that time for him and for me.

Now it has been a year and seven weeks, and I still don't feel ready for a romance; I am still crazy in love with him--I know it's crazy--and I can't imagine being in love with anyone else. But I'm tired of feeling old and frozen in the past, and it feels like my body has started to awaken from a long sleep. I'm feeling restless and am not sure what to do with these feelings.

I know I'll love my sweet George until the day I die, but I think you're right that he would want me to be happy.

I'm glad you're finding happiness again, Uben. Life really does go on, doesn't it?