Bereavement

our loved ones are gone - try to incorporate the good things about them in our everyday lives.

Rereading what you wrote makes me feel that you were very very lucky to have such clear memories the wonderful things your dad did. I think if I have any regret it would be that I didn't REALLY get to know my dad as well as you must have. Like there's a big swath of time when you're young and when they're still young that you just exist.

I think I teared up almost every night for the first year - looking up at the stars each night. And still have bitter hatred for trump for not warning everyone about Covid early on. But that is dissipating. When family got together over Thanksgiving it had turned into remembering the happy times and the funny things that happened or that he said or did.

I think it's human nature -- the evolution of grief. And everything is so raw to you right now. I wish you only the best.