Loners

many entanglements at all. I'm happy with son and grandson and a few friends.

When I was a child, it was a constant source of pain for me to try to fit in; I just wasn't terribly interested in what most kids were interested in, plus I was not assertive at all. The latter allowed me to be intimidated and embarrassed easily, and to be taken advantage of easily. None of that makes a kid get good feels about the human race, let me tell you. And then, being a girl/woman, the whole deal with men was often disturbing or horrific. Just realizing that lots of men considered me to be a [insert body part here] to grab is quite demoralizing. I truly did want to be a human being first, rather than some hole to f**k, but.....I didn't get to choose how men felt.

TBA, you HAVE figured it out. You just don't want many people around you! I'm the same way! I danced a jig when I finally retired and no longer had to deal with work and its personalities all day. It was exhausting. People are exhausting. There's no shame in feeling that way and wanting to stay away.