Loners

It says it well.

I ended up widowed instead of divorced after being married 33 years when my husband killed himself rather than get divorced after we'd been separated for a year.

Regardless, I am alone. I also didn't realize this forum was here.

I have been living alone for 3 1/2 years; he's been gone 2 1/2. I just turned 70 last month.

Lost my furry rescue dog, Snowy, of almost 11 years, last June. She was 14.

Because of the pandemic, I didn't even see either of my sons in person in more than a year.

If I weren't comfortable being alone, I suspect I wouldn't have come through this last year as well as I have.

I was the one who left, but I told my oldest son recently that I miss what my husband and I had when it was good, even though it hadn't been good for a long time.

I'm in the midst of a health crisis at the moment. Was in the ER for way too long Friday being worked up for stroke risk until I'd had enough and refused the MRI and told them to write the Rx for the BP lowering meds and let me leave. My oldest son had been with me, but I sent him home because I could tell he was struggling to be there due to memories of having been there with my husband three years ago when he made the first attempt to kill himself.

Life is complicated and difficult, isn't it?

I choose to tell people I'm a widow and then change the subject.