General Discussion

I was preparing myself for this, but I still hoped dems could win and that would have been the end of this for good. Still the reality is setting in, and it is affecting my health. I may not make it through much longer when it starts up again. No amount of preparation could prepare me for feeling of a ton of bricks weighing down on me.

We are getting prepared to leave if things get bad fast. First step renewed passports which we should have done already, but I had several years of severe trauma from which there is no real or complete recovery, and many legal and other issues to deal with and still do.

I watched in 2015 when it started and a fascist rose to power. No one challenged him the way they should have and now they are doing it all over again. It is truly insanity. The emperor’s clothes etc. No one has the courage to.

I can only hope for a miracle to save us all, to save me from being tortured continuously by the psycho who killed my father. I should have listened to him and left here years ago, he’d be alive and we would be safe. Also wish we never came here of course.

I knew at some point there would be no real justice for my father or for many others, and many others were involved in his death, but to have the main culprit gone would have been enough for me to accept…It would have been something. A relief and weight lifted.

There have been more traumas these past few months which will also never be healed. I have seen a terrible change since this all started in the fabric of the society. Not that these issues weren’t there before but it’s much worse. I have seen the face of evil again in another sociopath. It’s frightening.