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Addiction & Recovery

GreenPartyVoter

(73,149 posts) Sun Apr 26, 2020, 08:48 PM Apr 2020

I am going in circles. Admit I have a problem in the morning, be in denial 2 hours later, and back [View all]

on the hamster wheel trying to bargain some scheme to let me be better, but still do things my way. I don't want to go back to weighing nearly 300lbs. I don't want to end up in the hospital with a ruptured stomach. But I don't seem to really want to get better.

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I am going in circles. Admit I have a problem in the morning, be in denial 2 hours later, and back [View all] GreenPartyVoter Apr 2020 OP

you wouldn't be posting here if you did not want to get better Skittles Apr 2020 #1

Hugs, GPV. dawg day Apr 2020 #2

Go and watch the worst TV ever made Botany Apr 2020 #3

That is absolutely true Zambero Apr 2020 #5

Some of the acting is so over the top bad it is really good. Botany Apr 2020 #8

I binge watch Law & Order / SVU, a little grittier irisblue Apr 2020 #9

I recognize those feelings GPV irisblue Apr 2020 #4

Not yet. Am debating on trying OA again or trying SMART. But yeah, I need that GreenPartyVoter Apr 2020 #7

So can you journal out what feeling/want you are covering up with food? irisblue Apr 2020 #10

Yes. I have a counselor I am working with, but we both think that daily interaction GreenPartyVoter Apr 2020 #11

SMART works for me! bif Apr 2020 #13

First thing to do, IMHO, is to give yourself a break ... mr_lebowski Apr 2020 #6

You need to realize no-one will ever judge you as harshly as you judge yourself. marble falls Apr 2020 #12

I've studied a lots of Addiction & Recovery info & I have been to hundreds of meetings. Stuart G May 2020 #14

Its something I had to learn myself. Getting past all the guilt I had being me was hard ... marble falls May 2020 #15

GreenPartyVoter: What you have described in post 0, your first post is the essence Stuart G May 2020 #16