Hang in there. We need everyone who gets it. Please don't let events or Republicans win. I would go walking and singing. Breath control and exercise. Anything you can do to help yourself. Ask others who managed their PTSD what they did.
I don't think it is paranoid to distrust a Republican doctor or therapist.
Anyone with basic perception should be able to instantly see what MTG, Jim Jones and Trump are. It should take anyone with the ability to apply perception to psychological training no time at all to realize that Republican leadership is currently dangerous, criminal and insane. This is not a joke. It should be obvious. Anyone thinking might feel like they agree with some Republican views, but they would not choose sanity they disagree with, over raging destructive insanity. Anyone paying attention would see the obvious and start questioning all of their Republican views.
If a person does not immediately understand the need for a mask and chose on their own to wear one, a good one, and wear it correctly, they simply do not have a valid understanding of basic biology and health. They do not have basic compassion. They have no business in medicine. None. They do not belong. They should not be allowed to contact patients and they need to find other jobs since they do not have the basic understanding needed.
I have not even gotten into the empathy, integrity and compassion needed to practice in this field. Right now, anyone who cannot understand the need for a patient to be assured they are fundamentally against everything the current Republican party stands for should not be practicing in the field of psychology.
I don't want to ramp you up, but as you say a blackout is worse than not knowing. If a nurse refuses to wear a mask I expect the surgeon to kick them out of the operating room. It is as simple as that. We are in a pandemic and the evidence is that it is not going to be over soon.
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