One of my worse anxiety triggers is set to go off [View all]

My brother and I are the last two of the immediate family. We've lost 9 close family members in the past 7 years.

So my bro is getting ready to drive out to California to meet up with friends in San Diego and then head up to Humbolt County to help out another friend. He'll be gone about a month and then drive back. The trigger? I will worry, non stop, that something will happen to him while he's gone. The anxiety started ramping up this month. He leaves on Monday.

I haven't said a word to him about this because he deserves to get away and see his west coast friends. And I have my niece and her husband here, should I need help with anything.

It's just that nagging fear, dread, horror that something will happen to him and I'll be the last one. I seriously don't know if I could ever handle that. Irrational? Perhaps. Still, very real.

I'm making an appointment with my APN and hopefully she will refill my Ativan prescription.