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Therapy has been going really well. Monster sessions digging deep which is good. And also making great strides in my own safety and Independence feelings.

This evening I went to bed early after running errands and feeling tired and run down. Now I've woken up three times I'll do to having dreams of different instances where I was in bad situations or having people come at me.

The worst and most detailed one, was of being cornered by a husband of someone I babysat for. And now I'm wondering if that was an actual memory or if my brain is just fucking with me. Do I remember these people ? Maybe? I know that the rest of the dream was all garbled but it was interesting how my mother and my sister were the ones picking me up in the first part of the dream and in the second part of the dream I was sitting in the emergency room with my son. And it feels like I woke up and then went back into the dream again and it got more detailed. Just that feeling of being trapped, helpless, and having someone with ill intentions being there.

That's why I'm taking a break from sleeping to actually speak this out. Hoping that the next time I go to sleep it's not there still 😭

I hate how the brain can mess with you. Especially when your sleep is supposed to be, in my opinion, a safe space...