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I want to be clear on something here. This was hell and torture. It made me unemployable by forcing something worthless. Whatever it is, I will not allow it and you will figure out how to decouple me from this and I will not pull back even one complaint. Not even if Yasha Levine said I should.
You are not a child. You all knew what you were doing. I already have had to forgive two super annoying labs in the US.

I know she was old and past her sell by date, but I was fond of my mom.

It is not a good idea to encourage economies like these. It is not that I am sneering at influencing etc.
14 years after I first told these people I want nothing to do with this, nothing has changed my mind and to me my mom was as important as other people’s families are to them.

This was so parasitic and somehow I am less sympathetic to women who participated in this. I cannot tell with this dim-witted male contingent how these assholes think.
I am not flexing muscle as a joke.

I am going to the police and if I didn’t you would bully me and after having been tortured by this, next I would..lol..be one of these assholes that is next going to shill this?

No and I am a terrible liar. And I am not crazy. This was greed, malpractice and stupidity. At any point between 2011 and now you could have not gone around saying I am a bot and crazy.

As is I am working overtime to soothe this in ways that will only affect those who should do hard time for this.
I cannot huge we thing. You are welcome to pit your million people mob or not.

You can save yourselves or continue with histrionics about team work and cooperation and no. Don’t try to tell me this was not torture and exploitation with no use case.

If..if I could cover for you, I would. I cannot. I had to keep roleplaying this dumbass woman to not pretend that this was sleazy, creepy..

This is not how humans think. It is not relevant what your face is like (that ass Kosinski), what noisy sledgehammers you use, what emojis, fart sprays, these disgraceful lie and emotion detectors like that Aaron Elkins and

I cannot do anything about people who become suicidal etc after doing all this. Don’t do all this. Unemployment is better than participation in something that is undemocratic and where you had to know..

I know how women who are not sleazy or stupid think and well okay if you are married to one of these male zealots shilling this trash.
Okay I will admit it..My last mentor’s wife was the only woman in this I had any sympathy for. Maybe she buys into this trash too..good god.

But this is blind zealotry.

Here is what I am saying. It is not all that bullshit that woman Haugen etc shill.

Look Yan Lecun would never look me in the eye and say that for most people, with the kind of education common everywhere, except maybe in Germany (that is in this instance not a Nazi reference

If you are a pot using guy, different deal from being some girlboss mom who calls everyone an addict after barging into their spaces.
Yes data should be treated as the Texas Cadaver scandal.

I am not a luddite. Except the destruction of information and muddying with deepfakes etc sold as metaphoric vaccine to cover the rears of these creeps into infinity..
There is no “we”. There is using pot when you don’t even drive and there is pretending to care.
I harm reduce. I don’t need the validation of people who are this dishonest, pettily clerical and

Look you will figure it out. But I refuse to be scapegoated if you suffer the consequences of your own actions. We all do and my time is up and I never did anything this cruel and shitty and there is a time..
You may lose your job. If this goes on you will go to prison.
I cannot help it that you are sleazy and unsympathetic.. That is karma.

I can only vouch for people I trust and engaged with. This sort of collectivism is the cancer.
I would be giving you bad intel if I dialed this down and as Matt Stoller put it ignore human nature.

I have been in this parasitic hell for 14 years. The way to pushback against polemicists and bad actors is not by justifying and continuing to force this.

It will keep going lower and lower and more and more desperate. You had no reason to shill all this.

The actual real labor nor recreation I sign up for or enjoy works with this.
So I am going to the police..the shit on my street was the last straw.

I am not going to extort or go and suck up. I don’t talk to the people in this and I won’t. It is not my problem. But for the few people or things I do care about I extend olive branches to people who were never a part of this and not the types to perpetuate this.

The gist is human labor is slowed and worsened for a collection of worthless buggy tech and nonexistent products and services.

I kept incriminating myself as a lousy scientist in this. You know why? Because I am a lousy scientist and it is not to impress you with my humility etc. YOU CANNOT NEGOTIATE AROUND REALITY.

I took and take my lumps and so can I. And don’t bullshit to me about these trashy “studies”.

I will finish my write up coldly and deliberately and log off for a long time. I don’t want to push it with EarlG and elad, who I am grateful to for being trustworthy enough to engage with.

I can’t do this anymore. Fortunately no one I really care about is anything but skeptical about this shit and that is why I care about them.

Edit: There is exactly one exception to this since this is about informed consent. There was one male scientist I met at my last job in this super annoying and awful lab. He was the only person I met in that place, who like Yasha Levine, had some genuine natural talent and instinct for these sciences that was at all legitimate. But that is a strict one off and these creepy and local or online knockoffs can suck it. That is a one off, because he wasn’t stupid and corrupt like all the rest. Everything else, especially locally is pure misconduct and malpractice.