Writing

Ol’jfz9580m is now resigned to writing as a part of her duties as a (frigid) straight cis-woman. Is there any other overshare required here? Ol’jfz9580m thought most women were tbh and like my mom solitary breeders upto 1-2 kids plus a job.

But Ol’jfz9580m doesn’t lie and taking a cue from the last 14.5 years will out every piddling embarassing thing, to buffer herself in court.
I am filing a criminal lawsuit about the last 14?years in my state. And all necessary malpractice and misconduct allegations.

Indian behavior patterns eh..I recently read about someone local I took an instant liking to.
So many Indians one comes across (aside from the nice locals..Ol’jfz9580m really likes all the people who come to Ol’jfz9580m’s house by invitation. That is not many people. Mostly people we require for delivery services, my pharmacy helper who is very cool, electrical services etc. It is the people who drove down the street..I have forgiven “s****u* from _ Nagar. I got the allusion as a one off.

I generally protest how information flows through this. But as one-offs and in rare specific instances I shall permit this Frankenstein’s Monster to be aborted without causing needless ubiquitous diarrhoea. That is not local. Locally there is no compromise on the table except with the parts of India that I am originally from. This will not be a thing.

It is friendly and cooperative and btw it is totally shameless (a few of you in between should be ashamed of yourselves for reading Ol’jfz9580m, a person with a lot of mystique who is not at all a clunky and mechanical thinker!) I protest that description because it was very accurate and now I know the source of the non-scammy accuracy in this.
Nothing! I am elegant!

Wtf? I had no idea this sort of bullshit even existed. And don’t get all snooty. You don’t know the life I lead. You never had to deal with this much stupidity with these stale left and feminist scripts which are why we are here.
I always hated them. They are so clunky. And combined with Ol’jfz9580m’s organic clunkiness it was so painful.
These people are all idiots and those wags who quite possibly filtered through whatever a chapotraphouse etc are should remember Harjinder Singh.
I will only allow it where I allow it.

You see, I am a zealot as well. Not about idiotic things and what are possibly the worst jokes- they are also a redflag! A different kind.
This is useful for the Yasha Levine/Evgenia Kovda type of actually feasible art. They would not be stupid enough anymore than I ever was to be exploited.
And I do not take one criminal lawsuit threat off the table as that would be the end of the most respectable parts of the Indian middleclass to which I belong.

Do you understand?
But Ol’jfz9580m is filing a case against every creep and sleazebag who knowingly walked and drove down this street.

The Google traffic

I am grateful to whoever finally worked out that Ol’jfz9580m is not someone to mess with.
I was prostrate by grief. This will not ever be a product or movie. Historians are as far as I shall unbend.

Do you know why? Because this was one of the legitimately worst things I ever saw spelling the end of everything worthwhile as we know it.

There is no need to find it blood chilling how Ol’jfz9580m views men who sexually or otherwise harassed her. This is not a movie.

Ol’jfz9580m is not a Final Girl. What global society is it if these parasitic and worthless memes and stale jokes from another country recycled pathetically locally become a thing. Have some pride in your country man. Or even more grotesquely and sleazily woman.
I am not a nationalist. But I am a proud Indian.

I was not. But I am now. For various reasons you need not know tied to what I consider stupid (about 90% of the “entrepreneurs” outside tech and a 100% in tech. Oh suck it up).

And I am a feminist. Beyonce and Taylor Swift shall not steal that label from me and my mom and my nieces. It is a misunderstood word.

I shall post all my loathing of the so called left media culture after this because it is not a joke when you don’t use your brain and then gloss over it. It is not terminal if you can change.

I earned the right to these screeds. But that is not why I post them. Ol’jfz9580m sometimes looks at a situation and notes redflags. It isn’t offence or trauma or tough sassy sense.
These things could come back and bite Ol’jfz9580m’s life in the real world, the only place Ol’jfz9580m can exist as an actual human female (really shitty) scientist in her field.
Having to combat these loathesome algorithms and bots and all the very human thought out there that is a disgrace to the human ability to think taught Ol’jfz9580m many bitter lessons. Your collective stupidity, avarice and lame trend chasing and faux austerity plus real low quality destroyed Ol’jfz9580m.

My mom is gone. I an buffering myself against the anger, shock and grief the details will bring. There are forgivable errors and unforgivable ones. You were entrapped if you participated in this after Dec 2011 and not the way I have seen people who where they are confused, alarmed and angry at first..and then they start adapting.

I am pulling the plug on this with the criminal lawsuit that is needed. If you do not even gain from this and you won’t without my explicit consent and permission (I am not expressing any of you you idiots..I see the pile of rot thrown at me ..this is torturing the data..except I am not data).
Back to Tejas Thackeray. I liked him. That is the India I am a part of and they are not easy people. Not because they are kayfabing, bloviating “nationalists” who sell out their own country to Reliance/Tata/Bollywood/Mollywood/Sports trash/Edtech/Facebook/Google/Microsoft/the most corrupt parts of the local state and the centre/Pegasus/the NSO group/Alex Pentland etc.
And I despise the Indian left and avoid the Indian right. I am on the left. I know what left is especially when you have to non robotically factor it in..

Btw a note to some people I will want a word with about this cut and paste etc 😤. Terrible.
I am not hard to communicate with. I am impossible to communicate with.

There is no way I could have pulled off ..I see physicists who would be a good fit for real world models of ai. Adam Becker, Chet Miller..at my most mechanical in 2024 I was drearily gaping at Chet Miller on Physics Stack Exchange and dully thinking mangling Nicholas Carr’s human brain’s actual way of thinking by thinking..”I should give up if I cannot have a classical education” like Miller.

I will never migrate anywhere except visit for work and always return because I do love the parts of India I am from. And there I can exert real leftist muscle as exactly who I am-a middleclass Indian female scientist who is not at all tough and no nonsense and does enough pot to sink a ship or two, but does not suffer fools. Because alcohol is at least worth the dreary buzz..such a lame buzz. Pot is better for you and better. Fuck this anti-pot shit.

I don’t need libel online when I am filing the harshest possible malpractice and misconduct allegations I can against my former employer.
But there is good news!

For the two extremely annoying labs I was in.
I was adjacent to a lab whose pi seemed like an honest scientist..(🤮 ..this might well be love or a facsimile anyway. I could not stand that guy, but I wish these two pis (a male and a female who are cool) well and ..See what I do for you? That guy struck me as the type of person who both reads The Atlantic and even worse The Jacobin non-ironically and worst of all is a secret admirer of Elon Musk.
I never got the original democratic enthusias for Musk. But I can throw him and some others a bone provided it is not misused. Because at the point I will take them back.
Trying to mess with Ol’jfz9580m.

No I always saw through Musk and I don’t say things like that greasy Burnham guy I will need PR from Yasha Levine and EarlG for to ever be trusted again by the real left I depended on for insights and which should not be perverted by this really bad local shit.

Tejas is correct. Everything in nature and the best human systems works together and it is evolution. My attention is such shit I can barely follow more than a snatch (fuck off..Ol’jfz9580m has a friend who is really funny. That was a very funny piece from

Don’t lose your shirt over this swamp. I cannot see it becoming a lake and it is not worth it.
Its utility is complaints. I will have support.

It not this nonsense from Substack-an execrable thing that is advised to retreat. These things are all a cancer and they can be a cancer away from me or the precious bones I have to hand out to the disaffected and whiny..

Seriously..You code and you thought you could take on Ol’jfz9580m who has millions of years of evolution and a protective allele against schizophrenia that was severely challenged by this worthless trash?
But I saw a doctor - a cancer survivor years ago.

Yes I use my imagination but in my pal Stepfanie Tyler’s defense (whoever is using that site owes that poor woman if it is not these scammers. Or pseudo clever ones and I post under EarlG/elad and Mirt’s guidelines and..don’t try any cute shit on this end or that one).

I am not embarassed at using human imagination since this is an emergency if these guys cannot be caught and brought to justice and this aborted, condemned etc.

I fully support my mentor and take a leap of faith on those two scientists working for that annoying Elon Musk fan type. His kids are cute though and..my dad ..well okay my dad is nothing like this. But foreign countries are hard.

An honest conversation about immigration would not sound like this “Immigrants make America Great!”
Immigration is hard and dangerous even when legal and high-skilled when the worst goddamn corporations and spooks took learnt from the plot against FDR that was foiled and slowly took over your country making a joke of democracy and pitting you against each other and attacking or confusing anyone who objects.
Today I have not Marian Budde in my head but Stephen S Hall who I will forever associate with pest control services by Sen Hawley against TikTok. But it was my best friend’s voice in my head.
I am very fond of my two best friends..my ex husband and my best friend I had a crush on and would follow around insisting he should go out with me. He declined that, but we became best friends. He is married to another extremely respectable female scientist and I try not to think about them.

I am not offering you bones out of fear. What sustainability would be there in a democracy like that? But I can no longer hide how much I despise a lot of so called left discourse

And I shall explain why and that is sustainable for me and honest industry and honest public sector. It is not sustainable when you are stupid.

It is even more egregious to try to use this perverted ai bullshit for general intelligence. Yan Lecun is correct. Demi Hassabis is an idiot and a good fit for Google (is that libel?)
It will be funny if in the end it Swifties who finally dox me not the meninists and it is libel laws not marijuana laws.
I hate talking! All my troubles were because I was goaded or could never pull off Pulp Fiction’s comfortable silence as somehow despite the proverb “better be silent and taken for a fool, than speak and remove all doubt” the yawning silence between one and other people..

But that one doctor should help these idiots whom I am not filing complaints against. He should pull a Warren Hern. I never even talked to him and it isn’t the gross crap. He looked interesting likr Andy Nikiforuk or Joe Bageant.
I don’t really go up to and talk to people. But I am interested in people where there is zero possibility of: 1) being groped (zero tolerance) and 2) mindnumbing stupidity. The two are connected.
What I saw prior to 2011 merely looked very annoying but harmless and clueless more than greedy or malicious.
Just bad instincts wrt science.

Google is just a trashy advertiser that buys stuff up - I don’t even know if they have any hardware or cybersecurity (which sans endless bullshit white hatting) is the sole area of CS other than the most plain fare computer or phone crap I consider useful.
This will be destroyed and reported.
My brain works better without phones or internet. I won’t be easy to find after this and anyone who claims this was them is lying.

Only those who need to find me will and I will need copious explanations and permits and oversight etc and I don’t want your money or your pathetic loans or pages or radio. I need my properties to be under my control.

I am not a girlboss. I am probably like my dad’s grandma. She was a matriarch. She had only one kid..very rare for the time. And she doesn’t sound like someone who suffered fools.

Don’t steal and be an idiot. It annoys people. I liked..Oh yeah..loaves and fishes.
The high point of Ol’jfz9580m’s chequered career was not breaking a shared use instrument in 2010.
The Ol’jfz9580m’s instrument, her brain, broke under the strain and it was not innate or anything. It was this worthless trash/

I hate phones. Why the fuck would I want to hear from people, this totally bulshit use case aside that has limited acceptability only because it will be coupled with a draconian criminal law suit I file:

This is not a game world. This is the residence of an Indian Navy Veteran who doesn’t bullshit about serious things. You are lucky to deal with me and not my dad.
Well you are not. But either way, this isn’t a edtech sweatshop or a bad joke factory or ai in the wild. This is not the wild. It is a residential area.
This better be clear. My mom was very kind. Look what happened to her. My dad is a martinet and that is appropriate for this.
I am an evolved woman, but the only emotion I felt was expressed by poor Christian Bale and that is not a meme nor a statement on race and gender.
I fell into this originally via a USAF prank on the IMDB I was trolling along with various other people for Batman Begins. I used to post there as balehead. It makes some sense now.

Complete sense. I have to go give my dad his breakfast as our far from ill used housekeeper (who is family and for whom I have to provide a pension for taking care of my grandmother and us) is away. She doesn’t like it if I mess around in her kitchen. And keeps trying to feed me fish. Good luck putting her in an exploitative Gita Gambhir bullshit doc about Hindu Supremacists who exploit household help..
It would be kinda funny if they went to her..
As funny as representing me as a housecat at the NIH. I demand a reprieve from this awful diet!
I love reading and what embittered me most (common sense again)..Troy Farah is cool actually (that is called a schizophrenic tangent!!!) was not being able to enjoy a simple recreation in Ol’jfz9580m’s life that doesn’t involve mind altering substances.
While shilling this trash as marijuana law reform etc.
I hope that doctor helps with aborting this and he can heart Josh Hawley in his own home..better than Rand Paul. Prof Lecun is cool. If you are doing crazy shit understand human nature as Matt Stoller recommends.
And China is awful.
They would totally out the disreputable, non-artist and non-blogger who will risk libel forever more, in prison. At least I stayed out of prison and got my resources destroyed by this disgrace.
Okay..I have to start work today at least.

This is just beginning and it will be as ugly for many as it was for me. My mom is not a disposable..Next up! All of Ol’jfz9580m’s mildly cringey private behaviors.
Again coupled with a draconian criminal lawsuit to drive home why humping Retractionwatch and excusing data science and ai misconduct on this scale is a bad idea.

Incidentally since I am filing serious misconduct allegations against Google, I emailed Prof Hennessy who I can buy is some sort of human computer and so I forgave him.
But not the rest. Especially women who were in this while being wealthy and stupid.