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So this will be aborted wherever it touched my life between 2009 and the present. This is not the right way to do things.

There is no escaping a criminal probe and lawsuit in this creepy little communist state I am in in India at this point. Any hospital/tech company/ai company etc that was involved and used the airspace above my home/the two other properties, contiguous areas and the street for traffic studies, street mapping, homecare, ads, nudge theory studies (I will explain in another post) etc, will face harassment, psychological torture, attempted commodification and exploitation of human life, medical malpractice and misconduct in data science, the tech sector broadly.

Who else remains to be seem.

Further with the not actionable stuff that was still a huge strain, there is no need for this type of mindboggling crassness and stupidity. You can train your nurses and doctors without sticking cameras everywhere mildly to not gossip and violate patients’ personal boundaries whether it is data or personal space. There are simple ways to stop misconduct and malpractice and without it being those mindless sexual harassment corporate seminars. And no. I am filing a criminal case and posting this online on du.
It is fucking missing the point.

You know I usually feel really stupid in science-physics, math, biology (I am a total duffer at it and it is one of the most challenging sciences - it is so damn vast), chemistry (just no..that field is too hard..analytical chemistry is okay..).
But in this period of exposure to the private sector, I realized I am bright compared to these people.
I needed help from the left I could find online..mostly men. I am the MeToo woman in this and it was..it was so stupid. I will always remember the stupidity..I have not seen these many sleazy, brainless, self serving humans cooperating together to produce the ugliest and most useless scam imaginable. These days I have started laughing again and relaxing. Man..that was so fucking awful and in both countries..
I used to get angry, but now I think I am out.

I am easy-going. That is what makes this so outrageous.

This was a horrible experience. There was one Indian data scientist in my last lab whom I in retrospect liked. My oncologist is cool. If any of these idiots came through a local channel-do not tell me it is all dark web or Pakistan etc.

Or Elon Musk or Palantir. Do not do things that insult my intelligence. They are awful, but they are new. This was mostly Google and Facebook and Tata. In the random nightmare parts I met a sexual harasser who may have had a contract from the local state. He was so fucking dumb. He had the quality of that thing in Guildea. And huge complexes. All about colonization and how he is dark skinned and discriminated against. I used to dully listen to it like a good American returned brainless liberal, ignoring my gut instincts that this was a sleazy and indecent man. My dad took an instant dislike to him. Oddly there was a man there (whom he didn’t like) who was also as dark-skinned to whom I took a liking. He was cool. Everyone else there was a nightmare, but this man was getting a PhD under this creep and I liked him and he had no such complexes.
Yes ..sometimes bigotry works so people hate you for things you cannot control, including being organically unable to embrace certain political orientations.
I grew up as a military brat and when I was young I was very..I had an Indian military man’s daughter’s politics. And my mom’s Green and animal friendly and generally compassionate instincts. People can dislike Arundhati Roy etc and still have innate left instincts that are not being tapped into. My mom liked Medha Patkar and Jean Dreze. She didn’t like bullshitters and I don’t like people who swing between stoking divisions more nor insipidly and cluelessly forcing a type of brainless harmony, with an undertone of forcing your anti-abortion and anti-family planning or sobriety and coercive psychiatry and illicit testing and observation type of religiosity.

I respect Pastor Marian Budde and the BroadView Church as in the spirit of Jesus Christ. My ophthalmologist is a Christian. I don’t know him well, but he is the type of person Ol’jfz9580m instinctively turned into a human being around even in the hell years. I like his son too. Who looked mildly alarmed the last time I went there.
And I haven’t gotten new glasses since…lol..damn you all.


Ol’jfz9580m is getting out Right Fucking Now (DU humor), before Elon Musk and Palantir etc. entrench on the American side of this. I had to lie through my teeth to endure Google, Microsoft, Tata, Netflix, Amazon, AirTel, Apple, SBI and Facebook. I just don’t have it in me for this same hell now in this phase.
Ol’jfz9580m is exerting herself!

As for tech cos, I would not allow Reliance Industries anywhere near me. My dad uses their services. I would not attack a techie at Reliance unless he was a creep or she was a sleazebag (real world statistical knowledge! I do have serious criticisms about some of the ways in which a type of liability centric language came to represent social justice. That is why these braindead managers and lawyers care. They have that cynical a view of workplace harassment etc because of some entitled douchebag who is offended. That is the worst effect. That they simultaneously like my last employer which was so disgusting and which is why it will be facing misconduct and malpractice allegations targeting the legal people from back then and the psychiatric dept and whoever was in charge of that disgusting “bioreactor model”-hyperlibertarian, sexist in serious ways (do you really need an explanation for why that was a hostile, demeaning and invasive work environment? And I am easy going. Which was then a reason to tarnish me-Ol’jfz9580m! An individual much beloved - by Ol’jfz9580m..still..that totally counts..You guys do need a less nightmarish culture that knows what things really mean offline. And don’t steal my insights-hard won by years of hell, if you were not me. These are totally Ol’jfz9580m’s insights. I lived through a uniquely nightmarish experience you couldn’t begin to imagine when coddled into this hell which I was just tossed into without a paddle and seriously absolutely no meaningful support. I learnt from it. But it was harsh).

They treat their techies horribly and drive them hard. All for what? Some worthless scammy ai, bullshit cottage industries of scam “research” these local creeps would shill?

I have a lot of negative feedback. Since I was mainly in academia (and with a fraudulent type of laughably sleazy and callous “woke mental health concern” and equally sleazy work copping that was to its right), it is inaccurate to portray that as a place where historically right wing worldviews prevail. They are definitely not left or liberal except the actual scientists who do not talk much and neither have that sad Peter Thiel bogus academic’s never ending meninist grievance complex nor the excruciatingly stupid language that managerial types sell as..Ketcham covered it.

I saw an article years ago and the peak of this stupidity: Justine Sacco, Tim Hunt, Amy Cooper (the MeToo stuff was real for the most part. I generally believe and support women focusing on the high priority genuinely screwed over as I was and isolated, introverted women like me would find it harder with this mobbing.
In the real world, if as I have seen so far you continue to behave as shallowly as you do online, that is a problem. I will admit it never really agreed with that style of left. Which doesn’t change the deep rationales for being left. I like Yasha Levine because he is deeply compassionate. That is relatable).
But this article quoted the type of white male I used to have sneaking sympathy for. They were renaming manholes in Berkeley personholes..well no..maintenance holes. This man who was a carpenter I think said “Is this really the most important issue?”. It was 2016 or so.
And in 2026, with Roe v Wade laid to waste and so much more, it is hard to not conclude that that bullshit played a real role in driving a perception of academia, the left etc that is not just untrue (except where it is..not people I knew..not even the most annoying people I met..actually I guess they weren’t precisely annoying..they certainly wouldn’t be like this).

But this shit that if glossed over hastily- there is nothing wrong with learning from mistakes - that is evolution.
The way to respond to encroaching levels of surveillance, in addition to kicking it out wherever it is not the legitimate parts needed for national security, for cyber security, is to use it to clean up all the shit in your ways. Or double down and commit to them. But not where it is in my spaces or life.


This is an exercise in critical thinking. I am hastily exiting the old thing.

And locally, I do not want this. It has to be aborted as I see fit. But it has to be cleaned up properly. There is no way around complaints. But if you have a case that I would be sympathetic to, you will have to go via the few people or spaces I engage with and will now organize.

I shall state my case in detail, sketching out various issues with perceptions of the world that embattles and endangers even reasonable and honest people like me.
And it is never..0!!!! No ♾️!!! It is not this complicated.
I learnt a lot from that because it was pure hell.
Last week I think was the last week of hell.

I have decided there is no option but seriously draconian pushback. But I remain kindly Ol’jfz9580m though I feel every damn thing that made me select, of all things Ol’Orlick

And at another time despite this copious explanation, a type of paranoid person (it is understandable if you work with abused women..but then you have to realize that to a hammer everything looks like a nail).

Much like to Ol’jfz9580m sitting in isolation listening with increasing indignation about chatter about being fed to kraken etc eventually…I thought..why should I be fed fo kraken. I want to be kraken! lol.
I will draft some more guidelines and notes.

I am freestyling this. But at least the mean understanding some, exactly where is less clear, that is not the stuff I am pressing charges over, there is clearer mutual understanding is my hope.
Let this such as it is be one of the less conflict filled things.

I started interacting with some people I like or seeing them at least recently. My doctors here are cool..and none of the physical health doctors ever pushed useless stuff.
Psychiatry will have to contend with the misconduct and malpractice allegations that were..to use a favorite word of the Google creeps..”inevitable” when you shill scams like Woebot (that thing deserved to die..it represented perfectly the sheer brainlessness of Stanford Psychiatry. They cannot sue me for libel given that I am filing misconduct and malpractice allegations against a distant affiliate of theirs).
This will be aborted and I will need to be extremely harsh especially about the psychiatry and addiction bullshit and ai forcing and monitoring and the worthless agents.
It is all going to be really bad for Google and the private equity owned hospital that almost certainly was involved and the hospital where my mom died which was just greedy by then.

The very limited and select new things I will allow if any of this is salvageable subject to draconian environmental, privacy and consent guidelines I establish. This is my home:
It is a military veteran’s home.
You don’t just come here and “Duuuur ..I am with Indigenous CreepTechnology Inc”..lol..there was a funny Indian data scientist I met ..at the time I was indignant. Lol..

We have a saying here “Arre bhai dhung say karo”. I know Hindi! I barely passed it in 10th standard..60 something..I did well in english, math and general science!
So you don’t just come in here with the worst and most trashy Google and Facebook Microsoft Reliance Tata and Indigenous CreepApp NSO group Blackstone Inc and try to be pathetically funny or serious when..

I liked this one vegan lady and the marijuana people. They all have actual high (pun unavoidable) produce without some sad athletic celebrity, influencer, Tollywood/Mollywood creep and some disastrously stupid “anthropologist”. There is a sexual harasser called Alencier who is “anti-imperialist”. I swear, if I was a conservative those are the people I would amplify as “the left”.

And these disgraceful ship jumpers like Mitt Romney (I am a solid Hawley fan! I hate TikTok)- it is a joke EarlG. Another criminal street creep who fails to get it. The last time it was a creep at 2:50 pm when I was dubiously considering throwing a peace offering about the

Whoever could give me the names of all these harassers locally without a quid pro quo when they were not even involved will be happy to the extent that no one would like these guys. And because they are these really creepy guys in a corrupt and shittily administered communist state, they are probably communist in some cases. But the centre had to know.
And whichever side it was-you can ve sure they will all face harassment charges at this point.

Or what future in real ways..not important shit like personholes..what future do women have in this state and in my hometown which is my forever home. I may travel, if some not low rent job in my field was available.
Ol’jfz9580m bends to no one!

I actually am glad I came back. I feel at home and I will have done this state a real service not a bullshit conflict free one and at least done my part to communicate left critical thinking.

You can always change wrt minor stupidity but not if you don’t get it.
And “Main tumhaari behen nahi hoon samjhe. Main ek Mawaali hoon! 🤺” what is a mawaali?
From the contexts I have heard it used in it seemed to fit..lol..No..look, I am not a pill.
But you are not going to just come in and pull shit like this and it cannot be wished away.
Lol..no..no games and celebrities and bollywood and web crap.
Wherever this ends up Ol’jfz9580 is a person all shall learn to fear! None shall pass 🤺!

But i was starting to seriously feel like the Black Knight after I lost my mom..
So..don’t force your views after all this.
You will be the worse for it where unlike these street harassers and the avaricious, incompetent and negligent hospital clowns when my mom died, the shit that stalked me at the grocery store when i was nursing my mom.

This started feeling like that time.
I will work through this and based on what I saw, my slim tool set can beat this Theranos style incompetence plus grandiosity and too many people who spin cover up etc

This will be aborted and I assure you I will be fair but strict and harsh as needed. I operate under only the direction of Ol’jfz9580m.
Lol…

Except as perhaps an academic exercise in critical thinking for web-addled humans re the real world and the net (this experience forced me to use the web. As much as I love DU and hope something decent that is not a police case results, that again is why i hate Si Valley), none of this is relevant to US electoral politics except the vaguest left-right stuff. And I keep it neutral and focused on honesty etc.
I don’t bash the left more. I bash the “left” which probably took more liberties since I am left, Don’t forget that all the bad actors used to claim to be liberal like that sleazy Pichai.