Astrology, Spirituality & Alternative Healing

Let me describe something else that may be a bit more on point.

For the last two weeks I have been absolutely gripped by a 550-page book about the pre-Socratic philosophers Parmenides and Empedocles (srsly??), written by a mystical philologist named Peter Kingsley. The book is called "Reality", which turns out to be an appropriate title. I finished it today. Kingsley is a magician, sorcerer, alchemist, visionary and zen master of the first order. His interpretation of what these Greek ancients actually said (instead of what their enemies Plato and Aristotle said they said) has turned my world upside down, inside out and backwards.

I have been living inside a 550-page koan for two weeks, forced to draw the founding paradox of reality (Is/Is Not) into my soul and hold both sides equally until my understanding collapsed under its own weight. Now I feel like I'm floating over the Abyss, except the void is both me and the universe I have created - everything and nothing. And it has a flavour like the world's best ice cream - the taste of pure Being.

I think Neptune may be in there somewhere...

Both this experience and the money-related one I described before have to do with healing the psychic wounds that I acquired from running headlong into the brick walls of both external and internal reality. The externals were things like the looming collapse of civilization and the failure of material things to hold true value. The internals were my self-deception about my true nature (I am NOT my father after all), and my relationship to money as a symbol of personal value and universal creative energy.

Since I seem to be heading in the direction of becoming a healer, this "Physician, heal thy wounded self" phase is essential. That sounds a lot like Chiron in Pisces to me (from the bits I've read), especially since the latest phase started in earnest when I met my Twin Flame at the beginning of April 2010 - right about when Chiron entered Pisces.