Most of us here on DU have lost loved ones, whether they be human or furry.
The holidays are tough, especially the first few years. I come from a large family, and xmas was the one time of year we could all get together and make lots of merry--big happy gatherings, with lots of hugs, laughter, and great food. I was very close to all 3 of my older siblings, and lost all of them, and then my parents. Now, there's just me and my younger brother. He's a trumper, but he's also been a life saver. We love each other no matter what. I'm hoping we can get together this xmas, as I haven't seen them since Covid (he and my SIL finally got vaccinated).
One thing that helped me, is to start a journal. Fill it with all the memories of your mom, even the little things. It can be painful, but also cathartic.
Hugs and best wishes.
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