The holidays always bring the grief back. [View all]

More than 2 years since I lost my mother. I think I've healed fairly well, but as the holidays arrive, I yearn to have her with me.

I think part of it is that when she was with us (and I mean REALLY with us--before her Alzheimer's Disease took over), it was more common for the family to get together for a big holiday gathering. Though considering that my siblings all have their own families now and our own traditions, her loss isn't necessarily why we're not doing the big gatherings anymore.

Today, I find myself wondering if my memories of her perfect holiday meal are all that accurate--and if they are...HOW THE HELL DID SHE DO THAT?????

I baked my pies yesterday. Only two. (I can remember her doing 5 or more. )

I always feel her with me when I bake/cook. For that, I am truly thankful.

Happy Thanksgiving, Mom!