Bereavement

After muddling along for 7 years without my beloved husband, I have noted many phases, but the worst for me was not having anyplace to put all the love I still feel. It's hard to just release it up into the air. So hard.

Forms to fill out often ask for marital status, single, married, divorced, widowed. I wish there was a choice for 'widowed, but still married' because that is where I am and will probably always remain.

Know your grief is understood by so many here, as nebulous as that grief will be, always changing form and intensity. It's hard, many know that, and we hope our knowing, our understanding, gives you a little comfort as you walk your new path. Someday, you will notice your are smiling again sometimes. Someday, laughter will bubble up from your throat. But, always, there will be that void. Takes a lot of getting used to, but it evolves and you get stronger.

Courage, honor, and good memories are my wish for you.