May 1, 2026

So, I read this on MSN, but the header said it comes from Newsweek.

https://www.msn.com/en-us/news/world/son-of-epstein-associate-under-investigation-dies-by-suicide/ar-AA227hp8?ocid=msedgdhp&pc=U531&cvid=69f3e082d28b44c89ade895452d5671d&ei=17

Here is what got me...



I am sorry... 'Trump was not accused'??? I understand that there have been no charges filed, but he most certainly has been 'accused'!

This media... I swear...

May 1, 2026

On Reddit Today.

May 1, 2026

Has our dear Ocelot been doing some traveling?

https://ktar.com/arizona-news/rare-ocelot-arizona/5854451/?utm_source=fark&utm_medium=website&utm_content=link&utm_campaign=fark&ICID=ref_fark

April 7, 2026

Well, someone finally decided to go for it.

https://www.congress.gov/119/bills/hres1155/BILLS-119hres1155ih.pdf?utm_source=fark&utm_medium=website&utm_content=link&utm_campaign=fark&ICID=ref_fark

I do not expect a thing.

We will see, I guess.

April 6, 2026

I had a thought earlier.

So, who is ready for the point when all of this A.I. is in place and doing massive amounts of things for lots of people, and the developers suddenly decide that, since their A.I. was involved, that they deserve compensation for it... i.e.: copyrights, developments, new items and procedures, and so on.

I can see where this is going to happen and it will destroy the relationship between the people and technology, not because of the tech, but because of those who 'own' it.

Because, regardless of the situation, it is almost always the humans that create the problems.

We just can't seem to help ourselves.

April 5, 2026

I came here today to wish everyone a decent Sunday/Easter/whatever you wish it to be today.

In the past thirty minutes, I have filled this space twice with what I wanted to say about... things.

I then erased it.

Because it doesn't matter. It would change nothing.

Happy Easter Everyone.

March 23, 2026

From the science subreddit.

Not that this changed anything, but I thought it might be a good thing to post.

March 22, 2026

I have one thing to say today. (A long thing, for sure.)

I have often spoken of how I am nobody. From that, one can infer that I feel that I have no value. That I have no merit.

Let me be clear. I am not the one who says this. I am not the one who thinks this.

I am going by what everyone else says and seems to think. I feel I have plenty to offer about a number of things.

But, no one is interested. No one cares.

When I say that I am nobody, I am going by the reality of what I am living every day.

No one cares. No one wants to hear anything I have to say. No one wants to consider any ideas I have.

No one even wants to be around me.

No one.

When I say that I am nobody, it is because the entire human race says that I am.

I do not agree, but one has to remember that old saying about assholes.

If you are at a party, and you think someone is an asshole, chances are that they are the asshole.

But, if you are at a party, and you think everyone is an asshole, chances are that you are the asshole.

When applied to my situation, it still holds true. Since I am the sole person who feels that I am worth something, yet everyone else does not think so... then I must be the one who is in error.

Nothing I have done seems to have mattered to anyone. I am not talking about something that made me rich and famous. (That concept is one that I have had to deal with for so many decades now. I want success, not fame and fortune. I wanted to be able to do those things that I love and give my life meaning, and to survive while doing them. That's all. But, because my profession is one that helped create 'glamor and prestige', wanting to survive in it comes with a certain amount of 'spillover'. But, I was not interested in living for the glamor. I wanted to make films. However, just being in that profession seems to mean that one is a shallow, self-centered vulture to everyone else. So, when I would lament not being able to pursue the profession as fully as I wanted to, all I would, hear is comments about fame and fortune.)

It has been my experience that people remember one's actions (or inactions), but seldom remember the name associated with it. Again, that is fine. If my movie was what was remembered, that is fine. If it is not, there is little I can do about that, and would just make another one. I never got that chance. Too much of our society is far more concerned with one's income rather than what one puts out.

Sorry, I am just trying to work things out. I know I don't have much time left, and I am trying not to be the greatest cynical grump in the universe when that day comes. But, I can tell you now, that it will be very difficult because I also know that so much of my situation could have been helped, but it was decided not to. The reasons for that can be debated forever, but deep down, I know it is because it would have been seen as a 'bad investment'... mainly because I have been vocal throughout my life that I couldn't care less about all of that. Since that is the complete opposite of how our modern society works, I am considered 'crazy' and not worth the effort, because I am not going to suddenly bow down and kiss the corporate ass.

So, I sit here and wait for that day. I wish I could do something else, but until I can address my health issues, there is little I can do about anything. We cannot afford to even talk about it. Consequently, those who could help have decided not to, so here we are.

Tick tock, tick tock...

March 7, 2026

Seems fitting for today.

March 5, 2026

I hope that everyone here is having a decent enough day.

I would never act like it was 'great!' because there is so little that is anymore.

My day is not going well, but those tend to be the 'regular' days. They vary between 'meh' and 'flirting with complete ruin and destruction'. The complete lack of joy in my life is really wearing me down. I just cannot find it anymore. One can say what one wishes about the effort, or the fact that I may be missing things because I am not seeing the joy I front of me. Any suggestions could be it. But, the bottom line is that I am so empty. I have nothing to look forward to, because there is nothing to look forward to in my life. I am on the 'deathwatch', in that I am doing the one thing I swore back in my twenties that I would never do, and would rather die than doing so.

Well, here I am. Too far gone to feel anything and too much of a coward to actually do the thing that would solve the entire situation. No one wants to have anything to do with me and I guess I can't blame them.

The chest pains are growing worse. So are a few other medical issues that I cannot hope to afford to address. That is assuming that there would be a 'medical profession' to go to, which I am beginning to doubt more and more. Their goal was to make it so expensive that only the rich can afford it. They succeeded. The culling is happening and we don't seem all that interested in doing much about it.

One gets tired of talking to walls. That is all I seem to be able to do. As much as this may sound like I am being ungrateful and negative, although I enjoy the online personalities that I meet and interact with, they cannot replace being in the same room as another person and having a chat. I have not done that in over ten months now. No one will visit, because there IS no one to visit. My husband is so deeply addicted to his phone and computer now that he never wants to talk, or even sit without having that thing in his face.

I have been replaced by something that has batteries. How insulting is that?

Anyway, I hope you all are having a decent day and I hope that tomorrow will being another decent day.